It is always weird being in a foreign country when your country is having a holiday. This July 4th I believe was exceptionally strange because the day before I had to say goodbye to 3 of my good friends. And my best friend is back home at the moment. To me this was an excuse to have a pitty party but let’s face it… I am no good at those. I can really rarely ever find that my life is so bad.
I instead decided to have a milkshake. What better way to celebrate than with this wonderful American creation. After my little indulgence I went home and got a surprise call from one of my best friends back home. I talked to her for about 3 hours and it made me realize how even thousands of miles apart and a 9 hour time difference can’t change the people who are important in your life.
Tannabelle and I both talked about the instability in our lives. Then laughed about because to anyone on the outside we are both extremely fortunate. Both of us have jobs, places to live, and good people in our life. But to us… Well, we want more. And isn’t this human nature? Its not necessarily like we need more but both of us have so many uncertainties in our life right now. For me, this is a love hate relationship.
Before moving to France, I always knew the next step. Nine times out of ten I was ahead of the game because that’s just how I am… Persistent and fast-moving. But here my life has been turned upside down. I have no idea when ill be back to the states. If you ask me where I’m going to be in a year, I wouldn’t know what to tell you. And to me this is a bit frustrating for the planner side of me, but so exciting. I love that feeling. My life isn’t predictable and I love that.
So after our long discussion, Tannabelle and I giggled at our strange want to have some stability but understood each other and that’s all that matter.